The second in our series of testimonies from the 2013/14 SSE students…
Jane – A power encounter: I’d been struggling with an attitude problem recently, feeling constantly tired, that life is hard work. I’d seemed to have lost the joy of being in Jesus, and couldn’t seem to find it again.
During a ministry time, Rob felt the Holy Spirit wanted to inundate me with his presence, and two others prayed for me. In all, I was prayed for, for about 15 minutes, and during that time there was some over-the-top laughter, and other ‘manifestations’.
The two others mentioned some things in their prayers that we spoke about afterwards. One thing tied into my recent realization that I’d been deferring to those around me, as a pattern from relationship with older siblings when I was younger. I forgave my siblings, blessed them, and rebuked the enemy.
Another related to self-hatred – I’d had a period about 25 years before where I’d constantly, in my head, said ‘I hate you, I see nothing good in you’ to myself, and sunk lower and lower into depression. The HS helped pull me out of this by changing the tape, so I was able to say ‘I like you, I like the fact that you love Jesus’. And yet, I’d not repented of that – so I did that, I repented of those thoughts, and rebuked the enemy and asked the HS to fill me.
After that ministry time, life was different – I no longer felt life was hard work, and that I was pushing through an attitude problem. I felt I could connect with Jesus again, and find the joy.